It’s just, too much, so much bad and evil happening and I can’t take it, nor can I look away.
I use these platforms to distract from the gnawing constant loneliness I feel that never goes away.
I can’t spend more than 5 minutes without a video playing or checking some kind of media to fill the void.
I’m feeling so suicidal nowadays, but I’m stuck in this existence for the time being.
I see. How about trying some cheaper hobbies and, if you hate them, you’re only out a little bit of money. I got into farming by growing plants on my balcony as a small hobby. It doesn’t pay the bills by I enjoy (most of) it, I use my hands, and connect with nature. I also used to like doing small woodworking projects for the same using-my-hands reason. Amateur radio might be another one to look at (entry is cheap but it can be a money pit if you get really into it)
Nature and plants are my favorite too. Its very cheap, and hiking only cost travel to outside. Bird watching is a great way I find to ground myself. Then bug watch, and plant watch. The only app I grant location data is the Merlin app. Ive learned so many birds using it. Theres an app Picture This that helps identify plants, and learning about the living things around us, really is… it lowers my blood pressure anyway.
The opposite of social media is nature imo. Its a connection long standing and worth noticing.