Possibly the most crippling part of having adhd for me is that I desperately try to do this but cannot hold it together long enough to make anything happen. Everyone I know talks about how bored and isolated they are, how much they miss getting out or getting together, but the only reason it worked when I was leading things was because I had an open door policy and no one else ever had anywhere else to be. Now that we all have lives and partners and families I can’t just let people show up at 3am, crash on the couch, and hand out tomorrow. They couldn’t do that if I could because they all have work in the morning. Ironically I live closer to my friends now than I ever did before and get to spend so much less time with them.