I blocked out large parts of my childhood instead. Anytime i questioned my gender i put it out of mind, or told myself thats not a thought i should have.
I didnt feel dysphoria 95% of the time, because i didnt allow myself to feel dysphoria. In an unhealthy way.
I had different problems in my teen years, so it didn’t cross my mind or at least I don’t remember. I remember actively repressing everything about my past and every time I got a negative thought I would just punch myself. Maybe now that I am better I’ve had time to notice.
I blocked out large parts of my childhood instead. Anytime i questioned my gender i put it out of mind, or told myself thats not a thought i should have.
I didnt feel dysphoria 95% of the time, because i didnt allow myself to feel dysphoria. In an unhealthy way.
Real.
Sounds a lot like me.
I had different problems in my teen years, so it didn’t cross my mind or at least I don’t remember. I remember actively repressing everything about my past and every time I got a negative thought I would just punch myself. Maybe now that I am better I’ve had time to notice.