It’s just, too much, so much bad and evil happening and I can’t take it, nor can I look away.
I use these platforms to distract from the gnawing constant loneliness I feel that never goes away.
I can’t spend more than 5 minutes without a video playing or checking some kind of media to fill the void.
I’m feeling so suicidal nowadays, but I’m stuck in this existence for the time being.
Yup, woke up this morning and chose depression, thanks!
No you didn’t, but depression can make a lot of choices for you and it’s difficult to see the options around you that you have until you force yourself to do something different.
Idk where you live but I am willing to bet there’s a food out reach program looking for volunteers within 25 miles unless you live In a super rural area.
I know you implied you aren’t up for it earlier but whatever your doing right now is clearly isn’t helping, so maybe something outside your comfort zone?
Humans are social creatures even if youd rather be alone most of the time, like I do, and getting involved In a community mutual aid program really helps others and can help yourself.