Im wondering if this is a common adhd thing.
For example, I have always wanted to program, but I can’t let myself start with some easy gui building block code. I need to understand how the code is interacting with the computer itself and know how they did it in the 80s. Then of course it’s too hard for me and I give up.
Or if im making music, I need to do everything from scratch the hard way, making it as hard as possible (and killing any creative effort i had in the beginning).
It’s the same with anything. I can’t progress if I dont know the absolute reason why something is being done. And if I do it the easy way, I didn’t do it right and took shortcuts so it was worthless.
Extremely valuable to me.
I wasn’t much of a cook until I started watching Good Eats, and learning the actual science behind shit. Now if I am unable to find X, I know I can substitute a bunch of other things because I know why you’re using X in the first place. Most of the time, it’s not taste that governs what goes into a dish, but the chemical reactions being created.
Knowing how a game works helps determine what is and isn’t a bug, as well as finding bugs or exploits for various reasons. Maybe you’re making a game and wanna crush them. Maybe you’re a speed runner and you can do some frame perfect bullshit because you know how the game does a specific action and it can be manipulated to your favor.