• StudSpud The Starchy@aussie.zone
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    11 days ago
    Had strange dreams about old "friends"

    The two guys I thought were my friends too, were just my ex’s friends. Believed I was transphobic and whatnot. Took her word over mine. It’s sad, one of them taught me how to build a PC, and the other him and I got along so well. I’m sad about what I lost because of my liar ex. It doesn’t help when I try to console myself that those two were never really my friends, because then it all feels like a lie.

    And another friend, my ex and I met him when we played Destiny and Destiny 2. He and I had a shared love for Blind Guardian and power metal, we could chat about anything. I thought he was awesome! But as soon as I broke up with my ex, this friend tried to date me. A betrayal of sorts. What I thought was platonic, and I was even planning on going to Adelaide to hang out with him, was another lie.

    He ghosted me when I said I was dating my now partner.

    I guess I’m just feeling a sense of loss. It’s okay to lose friends, it’s just part of life. But it’s sad I lost people I trusted, and who I thought liked me for me. Who I thought would believe me, or wanted a platonic friendship.

    Ah well, I like the friends I have now better anyway. They’re funny and make me laugh, different life experiences, unconnected to my past, and I love them and love talking to them. I hope I am someone they enjoy talking to as well!