There are certain things you can Google. For everything else, there’s MasterCard.

I have to open that way because this all feels … surreal. The first time we talked, she wanted me to snuff her, and now she wants to be my slave and financially support me (and has already sent money).

I know this is not a BDSM community, and that’s all I’ll say on this front, but she’s late-20s, pre-op and seemingly enamoured of the fact that I see her as a woman. Texting with her, as we started, she seemed totally passable … we hit a giant fucking speedbump when she sent art of random chicks, and I had a come-to-Jesus moment after the reveal after being gangraped in college and faced with cock again.

It was not the easiest 24 hours I’ve had.

Net result, we’re out the other end, and since she’s at the start of her journey, she wants me to give her a name.

There is some … not irony, but … one of my first memories is of watching The Neverending Story on a TV wheeled into a ski lodge so the kids could watch while the parents drank. I’m not going to provide a synopsis here, but the elder son of my second ex wife (always a phrase you want to be able to use) was Atreau.

The thrust of the movie at large is giving a name to a new girl. There are some twists and turns.

And so here I return to this well. I fucking hope Amanda was a good choice. She just felt that way.

  • Pete Hahnloser@beehaw.orgOP
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    1 month ago

    It’s not as though 29 and stunted 45 after abusive relationships are what you make them out to be.

    Grooming is an accusation I don’t like. Can you really groom a 29-year-old living with her parents who won’t let her come out?

    Look, I have zero experience with trans partners. I fuck up on my terminology with her. And I call women “chicks” because my bi ex-wife did. You can dig for whatever you’d like here, but you won’t find much of use.

    • Vodulas [they/them]@beehaw.org
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      1 month ago

      It’s not as though 29 and stunted 45 after abusive relationships are what you make them out to be.

      This makes it so much worse, especially since you are very averse to therapy based on past posts.

      Can you really groom a 29-year-old living with her parents who won’t let her come out?

      Can a cis, 45 year old man with unresolved trauma groom a sheltered, abused 29 year old trans woman? Not technically, but the dynamics are closer to grooming than a healthy relationship. I’m glad you don’t like the accusation. Hold that and maybe do a little introspection.

      Look, I have zero experience with trans partners. I fuck up on my terminology with her.

      That is another red flag.

      And I call women “chicks” because my bi ex-wife did.

      Really don’t care. Don’t do it.

      I’m not digging for anything, that was surface level ick, and you made things a lot more so by adding details. This is such a bad situation and the potential for you to fuck up someone’s entire life is so high.