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Cake day: June 14th, 2023

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  • Everyone is different, and it’s true that I don’t know your situation.

    My own situation is that I have always strongly wanted to be a girl and I spent most of my life believing that everyone did. So I really have a hard time relating to non binary people, and I can’t offer much advice in that regard.

    But what I can say is that I was never sure that I was trans. I still can’t tell you definitively. But what I decided one day is that I wanted HRT. Nobody knows what it will do to you until you do it. I strongly suspected it wouldn’t do much at my age, but I thought that any sort of curves would be welcome. I had no real plan in place, aside from maybe being able to live a double life. But the results were far better than I expected, and I’ve been happily living life as a woman for years. I still have the occasional bout of doubt, but there’s absolutely no way that I would ever want to go back.

    My first week of HRT was a pretty intense rollercoaster. Right after my first dose, I felt a level of peace I rarely feel in life. But for the rest of the week I would waffle between excitement and intense dysphoria and doubt. I don’t know how you’re feeling, but it sounds similar to my bad times.

    It did get better for me. I had noticeable boobs in about 3 weeks. The more curves I got, the brighter my future got. When I male failed for the first time, I made the decision to legally change my name and gender markers. The day that I got my new passport was my last as a man. The dysphoria is completely gone, aside from the increasingly rare moments of doubt.

    Anyway, that’s my experience. I hope it helps, and whichever way you choose to go, I hope you find your peace. Everyone deserves a life without dysphoria.