• Seagoon_@aussie.zoneOP
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    6 months ago

    The first stage of Catladyhood has been attained. I just bought Ted a cat stroller. 🤓🐈‍⬛

  • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
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    6 months ago
    TW suicide

    Man… I am so deeply in crisis. I’ve massively avoided talking about just how severe things have been living here but with the crime and untreated mental illness/substance issues ramping up again it’s really affected my mental health.

    I have really severe ptsd developed over the years from repetitive harassment and stalking, attempted or semi-success break-in’s while I’ve been home and credible physical threats. (The pocket I live in is a hotspot for untreated mental illness and substance abuse issues with a lot of resulting crime, and I’m considered an easy target due to my size, disability, isolation and gender. The cops do little to nothing because it’s so entrenched.)

    It is still constantly being triggered by further threatening incidents with no end in sight. I just don’t feel safe living here and yet I’ve been trying to escape for a very long time with no luck.

    People are trying to help me but it’s getting nowhere soon. I’m afraid that my physical health is going to give out, my mental health will end things for me, or my luck will run out and I’ll no longer be able to avoid the threatened physical attacks.

    I may be forced to move from public housing into dedicated disability accommodation or mental health housing but I don’t know how long that could take or if there would be any suitable places.

    I’m using all my coping strategies but they’re just not enough against this.

    I have a psychologist but she seems to have hit the limits of what she can do for me and is now giving really minimising and toxically positive responses that are incredibly stressful and unhelpful. There is a secondary support worker I have who is much the same and I’m getting so stressed out by them that I’m just canceling appointments and withdrawing.

    The psych ward is not an option. I explored that option years ago in response to intense suicidal ideation/planning due to this and found it is both ineffective and genuinely dangerous for an AFAB even somewhere with a ‘women’s ward’.

    I can’t afford the private rental market, can’t go to any family, and can’t cope with share housing so there’s nothing anyone here can do for me.

    I desperately don’t want to die but without safe stable housing I really don’t see a future for myself.

      • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
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        6 months ago

        Oh I have, thanks! There’s a bit of complexity involved so there’ll have to be a lot of looking through the options

    • StudSpud The Starchy@aussie.zoneEnglish
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      6 months ago

      I’m sorry, that’s an utterly awful situation. I know there is little I can do to help, and I wish there was a button I could press to fix it for you.

      I’m so sorry

      • melbaboutown@aussie.zone
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        6 months ago

        Thanks. I’m so sorry to dump that on you all. I perhaps should’ve stepped away from Lemmy like Baku did.

        If it’s any consolation I’m a survivor and fighting as hard as I can for a better future.

    • wscholermann@aussie.zonearagonés
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      6 months ago

      Rather than projecting far into the future which you can’t predict and can’t fully control focus for now on making it through hour by hour.

      Ask yourself, can I make it through the next hour? If yes, keep going.

      If your current residence doesn’t feel safe, while you can’t flee from it completely, stepping away from it might be helpful. For example go to the library, hell even a shopping mall. You don’t need to buy anything.

    • Eagle@aussie.zone
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      6 months ago

      I used them, they did help. It’s only one craving at a time you have to get through.

        • indisin@aussie.zone
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          6 months ago

          If you vape have you tried slowly cutting down the nicotine mg until you simply forget to add nicotine / don’t notice the difference? The hand to mouth action and the breathing exercise then becomes the toughest habit to break, one which I cannot break and so have just accepted it at this stage.

          Also I found that the patches don’t really help because they’re “always on” and don’t replace the habitual behaviours, whereas the mints do as they’re a conscious decision to have one, the flavour of them though ruins meals. And they’re significantly more (prohibitively) expensive than vaping and cutting down nic levels.

          • Gibsonhasafluffybutt@aussie.zoneEnglish
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            6 months ago

            I was doing that until the ban came in. I was down to 3mg but now I have the disposables, who knows what the strength is. I tried getting the ones from the chemist but that was a fucking joke. You had to get a new script for every retailer. Because the doctors writing the scripts are either in business with the retailers, or actually own the company.

            I’ll try all options. I’ve got the inhaler and that helped a lot, but I let it go after a week. I want out. I’ve been addicted to nicotine for almost 25 years.

            • indisin@aussie.zone
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              6 months ago

              Yo, vape liquid is just PG and VG with food flavouring - guides on the interwebs (I’m not at that point yet) and if you’re desperate for nicotine I have expired nicotine in the freezer from before the laws changed that I can maybe crash a bit of. It’s degraded, but was 200mg. I have enough to last me about 10-15 years which hopefully is long enough for the laws to change again otherwise darkweb it is.

              But yeah fuck the chemist route, I tried that with a plan to break them open and flavour them, and what an expensive ball ache that is, you need to see specialist GPs for a script, like wtf?..

              Well done for wanting out though, 23 years here and I can’t believe I used to be very against smoking. Fecking spliffs got me.

              Finally, good luck - you’ve got this!

              • Gibsonhasafluffybutt@aussie.zoneEnglish
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                6 months ago

                I’ve got heaps of nicotine, it’s just the coils I need. I should have grabbed a rebuildable but I’m shit out of luck.if you have one you want to sell let me know.

                • indisin@aussie.zone
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                  6 months ago

                  I’m really sorry but I have only got one RDA and one RTA and as I’ve never tried either before I need to figure out which is easier/better for me. I’m still on throwaway coils for next few years and so I won’t know which one is spare for quite some time :(

                  Edit: if you have a tank compatible with Smok v12 Q4 I can crash you 3 coils, or compatible with Valyrian III I can crash 6 coils. I probably have other in the house too but cba going through all my boxes.

  • notgold@aussie.zoneEnglish
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    6 months ago

    Trash day today. Filling up the trailer with crap to take to the tip. Tetanus is up to date.