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  • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.world
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    1 month ago

    Sad, sometimes, and a little lonely most of the time. Been through a rough breakup this year. But getting better all the time! Hope you’re well!

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      1 month ago

      Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don’t do very often.

      I’ve just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn’t enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we’re both on the road to healing.

      I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I’ve come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that’s why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.

      Time heals all, and I guess we’ve just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me

      • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.world
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        1 month ago

        Heya man, thanks for sharing. I hope you’re doing okay. That sounds tough, and it’s a hard realisation that love isn’t always enough on its own - relationships take work outside of love, and that has certainly felt like a disheartening realisation for me. It feels the world is a little less magic now, but that’s okay - there are better things coming for us both, that we will be better equipped to handle correctly with what we’ve learned from this. Happy Monday!

      • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.world
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        1 month ago

        Thanks! I actually did consider it but my landlady won’t allow pets, and if I’m honest I both can’t afford and am too disorganised to take good care of something living. Good suggestion, tho!

  • Sam_Bass@lemmy.ml
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    1 month ago

    exhausted. physically and mentally. even if i manage to disconnect its never for long enough to recouperate fully

    • Miss Millie@lemmy.mlOP
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      1 month ago

      That’s annoying… just the thought of catching a cold is annoying to me : headaches, constant sneezing, heat and such things … I hope you get better soon

  • frank@sopuli.xyz
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    1 month ago

    So excited and so overwhelmed.

    We’re moving from the US to Denmark soon. We just had a hurricane destroy our city. We are fine, thankfully, but our city is in bad shape. I also just had a decently big surgery a few weeks ago and my doctor’s office is gone, so in the midst of all this I have to find a doctor. Just coincidental timing on all of it.

    But it’s net positive. I look forward to the future more than I dread the bad stuff.

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      Is it that bad? I had thought the buildings would have mostly survived given the city was built to withstand them and that it was just too dangerous for people

      How do you recover from that? Does insurance cover it?

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        I’m in Asheville NC not Tampa. We’re not built for the hurricane we got.

        Insurance covers very little. Not the fact that the city won’t have water for months, nor access to you property, nor flooding for the majority of people, and many many businesses are gone

  • flashgnash@lemm.ee
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    1 month ago

    I currently feel like my nervous system is vibrating having just got out of the gym after preworkout

  • Rose Thorne(She/Her)@lemm.ee
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    1 month ago

    Eh. I have thing going on that I’m looking forward to, trying to keep my head up with things, but right now there’s this issue that’s putting a shadow over everything.

    I try to talk to the person involved, but they’ve kept at it to this point where I don’t want to be around them. I’ve tried to be gentle about it, but it’s like everything I said gets forgotten in a week and I’m the bad person for putting my foot down after.

    I think it feels worse because I know what I need to do, but it’s going to make a lot of things very difficult, and it’s going to take accepting that someone who was very important in my life isn’t the person I knew when we reached that point. That neither of us are.

  • eskimofry@lemmy.world
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    1 month ago

    I feel terrible because I didn’t buy even a card for my wife’s birthday. I just took her to her mother’s house. This was two weeks ago. I am still baffled why I didn’t buy flowers or something. My wife isn’t demanding at all.