• twelve20two @slrpnk.net
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    2 months ago

    I am so fucked up in part because I was taught that pride is the root of all evil and that it’s better to be humble.

    I struggle to accept compliments, I struggle to not be intensely critical of myself, and I feel like I have very little drive for just about any form of competition.

    • DominusOfMegadeus@sh.itjust.works
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      2 months ago

      I felt like you my whole life. All that shame, embarrassment and guilt. I literally assumed it was just because I was in fact a shitty human.

      Then I read this: https://www.additudemag.com/rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-and-adhd/amp/

      Holy shit. What a revelation. I told my psychiatrist about this and sent him the article. He prescribed Clonidine. Clonidine is amazing! It got rid of all that shame and allowed me to realize that I do not suck, that everyone does not hate me, and that those horrible emotions were basically fictions created by my shitty brain chemistry.