Hey yall, names Evelyn!
Ive been having a rough time lately; i WAS a federal civil servant in my dream job, that I thought id have for the next 20 years. Then I got DOGE’d. As a result, I have to sell my new house, and move back with my mom. 5000 miles away.
Anywho, Ive been struggling through the bottom surgery process, getting letters and whatnot. I’ve turned in the necessary docs and should get my date within the next week. That being said, I’ve found what could be called a… lump, on my testicle.
I have been urged by reddit to consult with a doctor and have it inspected, but quite frankly, if a cancer diagnosis delayed my bottom surgery, I would kill myself. Flat out, period.
My life in general is shit. I have intense self loathing. I’ve lost everything because of the trump administration. Im ugly. Hideous and masculine. This, right now, is the only thing I have going for me.
Sorry for the vent. I guess I have to put this out there before I schedule my physical. I just feel like I’ve got no one to talk to, including my therapist.
Cheers.
Quick update:
Ended up getting checked out. Doc said its probably nothing but scheduled an ultrasound just to make sure. Thank yall for your concern!!
I’m not the best at talking but my DMs are open if you ever wanna talk. There’s also the matrix which has lots of people in it, including some people who have done bottom surgery
I’m no medical professional, but if anything that sounds like a damn good reason to put a rush on (at minimum) orchiectomy.
Also a (soon to be) former federal employee (DAF). For a multitude of reasons i took the DRP 2.0 to get out, mostly because i knew damn well I was redundant and local orgs were trying to secure job positions against contractors before this administration.
All that to say, I get it. Its awful to lose that kind of job security, especially if its a dream job.
not every lump is automatically cancer, i’d say. the chances for that are small, but you should still let a doctor see it.
