When you try to ignore someone because they are being an ass while drunk, and try to sleep on the couch, and they yell at you to get in bed, then they bash you in the back of the head with there with their phone while you are laying their facing the other direction, they say, “call the cops, they’ll arrest you”. Is it true. Could be. Im back on the couch and under control but man could I use someone to talk to. Im so tired of being abused and treated like shit. I know I don’t deserve this shit, but fuck does it hurt and I won’t let myself yell. I won’t allow myself to fall to that level. If they want to be that way, that’s them. But I need to be better. Yes, I know I’m dumb. 35 years dumb lol
Then I’d say it’s time for you to find a new place. Look into some sort of counseling or support group for yourself. Maybe alanon (ok maybe not ideal, we work with what tools are available at the moment) until something else is in place, or maybe works for you.