You do what you think you need to do, and if you think this will help you, then it’s a brave step to take.

Just one thing to think about though: I don’t think the term “deserve” means anything whatsoever. I think it’s a concept that was made up to justify wealth inequality and nothing more. It is an entirely useless category that cannot be falsified and has never helped anybody except those who abuse it to keep others down. Life is what it is, and what we make of it. No amount of talk about what anyone “deserves” ever changes that.

I used to believe in “deserve”, and it did nothing but harm. If you have everything and believe you deserve it, you’re entitled. If you have nothing and believe you deserve it, you’re miserable. If you have everything and think you don’t deserve it, you’re a fraud. If you have nothing and think you don’t deserve it, you’re bitter. Since I realised “deserve” was bullshit, I haven’t missed it for a single day. I still put food on the table, nothing changed, I just stopped keeping score.

You do what you need to to get by, and don’t let anyone tell you you shouldn’t. It’s all anyone can ever do.